what.

slipped through his messages ><
i once again wanted to prove myself wrong..
wanted to tell myself that he doesnt have other girls.
boy, am i wrong...
he's planning to meet up with someone in hawaii...
that someone is a friend of mine...

why is it that he can let go of a year & a half relationship
in... less than a week... and he can move on so quickly.

i'm at the point where i am pissed off & disappointed.
in myself, never at him. i don't let him get the blame anymore.
why the fuck can't i move on! what is wrong with me.

vincent just told me that i care for him too much...
why does that have to be. i feel like i hate him.
i hate him for breaking my heart... but at
the same time, i'm madly in love with him.

what i want more than anything is just to escape this.
i'm glad he's in hawaii... but i want him to stay there
i don't want to face him anymore. i'm so done.....

i know that when he reads this, i'm going to get yelled at.
he's gonna ignore my feelings, like he's always done...
it's never gonna make a difference... i broke up with him
because he told me straight out he didn't want to be with
me... honestly, i don't know how i feel... but it's a mixture
of heartbroken, disappointment, gloom, and anger.
i don't understand how he can see me hurting and not take
action & ignore it.

atleast he moved on... now i know he doesn't need me anymore.
he never did... he said i was the main girl. truth was, he didn't
have a girl, he has GIRLS, and i was the one that was put aside
while he makes himself happy with the others... why do i
always fall for guys like this...

wilson, chris, and now paul.
each one, i though would be different.
they were different, till the end of the relationship
where they all turned out the same.
i am really starting to think that i'm only gonna
live a life of hurt. mm...

what does it matter. he's gone, i'm merely a friend.
he has all those other girls...





WHY THE FUCK CAN'T I JUST MOVE ON.