fuck what he says

MistuH PeeWheE (11:28:28 AM): tell me
MistuH PeeWheE (11:28:40 AM): why i should see
MistuH PeeWheE (11:28:40 AM): you as mature
MistuH PeeWheE (11:28:40 AM): person.

he sees me as an immature girl that can't handle any 'mature' adult situations.
i think he's getting ahead of himself. he's fucking 17 and still in high school.
he still has lots to learn and he shouldn't go around saying he's a fucking
adult or he's mature. i said it because i thought it was true. i believe it's a
fucking mistake telling him that because he's just uses it against me and it just
makes him a fucking cocky bastard. but that's him. he's always like that.

if he thinks i'm nothing more than an immature kid, he can go right on ahead
and think that. i know that i'm more than that. if he doesn't see it then whatever
he's not gonna take the time to see it. experiences that i have been through shaped
me in some way. waking up in the hospital a few days ago just makes me realize
i'm stupid for tripping over him. i'm gonna try to change that. fuck, i need to be
strong. i don't need all this extra baggage in my life. life's too short. i need to make
the best of it. i've always wanted to make a difference in people's lives. make them
realize that there's always good in this fucked up world. i still believe that there's
good in this world. i know kids having sex at fucking 12years old. i see drug abuse
and alcohol abuse. i know about human trafficking and fucking kids getting raped
it's all wrong. if i could, i'd go back and wait. i believed in abstinence. BELIEVED.
it's too late now, but i know that i can still wait till i get married. it wont be the
first and it won't be as special, but it's worth it. i respect myself too much to
let some guys hit it and quit it. that's just not my thing, so no thank you...

i'm changing. i see myself changing. i feel myself changing...
so, let's start over.


Hello, I'm Christine Le. I'm an incoming junior at Mater Dei High School. I'm turning 16 in a couple weeks. I'm single and in no need of a guy. This might seem selfish, but i'm doing myself and worrying about myself. I need to get myself far and strong to survive life. I don't have a set plan for my future nor do I know what I want to make of myself. But, I'm sure all that will come once I settle down, relax, and learn about myself. I'm in the process of exploring and learning about myself and what I'm made of. I have many beliefs and a good intention. I did some dumb things and I put my life into a lot of danger. But that's all in the past and I'm changing that side of me. I appreciate my life, my family, and my friends. they've been by my side supporting me and there is no way i'm going to let them down. This is me. I'm changing and I believe it's for the better. So, this is a new Christine. Like it or not, that won't matter for me.