what.

to get thing clear...i'm hella depressed. but it's not 100% him.
some stuff has to do with him but hes not the blame... i am.
i only talk about him on here because he's kind of my main
problem at the moment... i still cry thinking about him...
i hate this. i want to stop but i just cant!
trust me, i'm trying my hardest to get over him...
it may seem like i'm not trying, but i'm doing the best i can.
i'm tired of being pushed and pushed... pushed into something
that i can't do. and all that pushing isn't helping. matter of
fact, it's bringing me down more. my friends push me and i just
can't say "stop!" why? because they're helping... i don't want to
push them away. i appreciate them for helping and caring but it's
something i need to do on my own. i need time for it... everyone
solves problems different, i'm not like them. so when they tell
me to get over it, i can't get over it too quickly. then they
tell me that they're done trying to help. or they're tired of
me like this. it just makes me feel down more...

i just want to be left alone sometimes...
goddamnit, i still miss him... )':
i hate how he doesnt really care if i do or not...
mmm... home alone... higher chance of crying.
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