*sigh

lots of things happened since i last blogged...

couple nights ago, i stayed up texting khang.
why? because he's like my brother.
everything that happened to me, he has been through.
it's so easy to talk to him and i feel like i can trust him.
he always gives me the best lectures and advice and
they all make me feel better and confident... i love him

i've been getting mixed feeling about EVERYTHING
and EVERYONE. *sigh. i don't even know how i feel
anymore.
paul; i miss him, i know i still like him... idk about love
anymore. i'm tired of trying to love him, ya know? i
really don't know how i feel about him anymore. i hate
him for doing what he's been doing but i can't hate him
and be mad at him for over an hour... i really don't know ):

i don't know what "liking someone" means. how does it feel?
how does love feel. and how do you know if you're in love.

i feel really confused. i don't know why. i'm just hella confused!