what.

hmmmmmmm
last few/couple days...
august14th around midnight.
i got hospitalized AGAIN.
woke up that moment thinking to myself... i am fucking stupid.
i mean, i'm putting myself in this much pain because of what some stupid
guy did to me. all the others guys did same shit in different ways, so why
am i fucking tripping over this guy for so long and this hard...

i'm still thinking about him though. i still miss him like crazy...
but i know that i don't need the kind of shit that brings me down in my life.
last night was my first challenge. i wished i could've been stronger when we were slow dancing. wish i could've gone through with it, ya know? but i just couldnt ><

ah idk.
i'm just tired of being hurt 24/7
i'm still hurt and i still think about here and there
but i just tell myself, i don't need his shit.
i don't need her shit either. she's just trouble.
and i said that the best way to learn that you're making
a mistake is if you actual learn it yourself. so i'll just
let him do his own thing.


i'm missing him right now